I went to the forest as this was my most familiar place and I just felt comfortable and free there. In the course of the morning I felt accumulated headaches which I wanted to get rid of with fresh air. I decided to go for a relaxing walk around noon. I felt exhausted even though I didn't do anything strenuous. I looked down, seeing what only the thought of him did to me. My left hand slowly ran down my body, ending up grabbing something hard.
I stepped back and leaned against the wall of the shower. When I started thinking of all this, I bit my bottom lip while letting Dream totally infest my brain. When my body felt like it would melt any second and I start shaking slightly and lose all my strength. No one was ever able to give me that feeling of weakness, but he was and I fucking loved that feeling. But Dream.I felt like I would let him do anything to me. I hate it to feel weak, I was always strong and never let anyone tell me what to do or that they're better than me when I knew it wasn't true.
I wanted him to touch me, to make me feel weak, to kiss me passionately, to give me those amazing feeling. His smile, his eyes, his tall and muscular body. I was just standing in the shower and started slowly zoning out. It was quiet in the quarters and there was nothing to do. What did he have? Didn't he want to see me anymore? Had anything happened? By now I was back home.
